pretending

Just pretending to make you feel better and I know it deserve for me to felt that way coz I know what I’ve done was wrong and crazy. The heart inside of my body, it hurt too much and bleeds too much. For now I can’t tell how much it’s broken inside and out. I can’t feel anything, not to cry and can’t feel my feet touch the floor. Where is my heart gone? I’m done and so done. I wasn’t looking for this. Tell me how to stop this feeling coz I could never stop this feeling. I don’t want to fall in love just want to have a little fun but then you came and switch me. It’s killing me over and over.

I know this thing will happen and the risk I take, I should realize it. There is nothing left to say, no more hurt no more pain and no more feel. This is the final say it’s over now and the thing is broken up. I’m sorry to make this thing more difficult. I turn it into a fire red and it’s too late to say I’m sorry for what I’ve done till I can’t go back to the right path and losing my mind and going more crazier till I can’t think more rational. I never felt this way before. The fact is I cannot erase u from my mind and my heart coz I love you so much. Please tell me now how do I live without you and how do I breathe without you. I can’t close my eye even in one second coz I see you. My body getting too weak, my mind is empty and my heart is losing for something that most important in my life. If you are listening, I miss you so much and it hurt me like a hell. I’m dying to have you as my beloved. Your love is immortal and eternal for me. I know I can’t do anything to have you. My heart was frozen and I can’t find the best word to hide from you the broken inside of me. I’m so sorry coz I don’t want to make you more stress and feel uneasy. And now, a doll name Emily who has the heart was taking out from her body. There’s nothing left and she will not have any feeling like a human. She lost her heart, her mind was empty, the body was frozen and her eyes too dark to see anything.