At War With Myself

In the morning when I wake is when all this begins to take place..

I've lost myself somewhere along the night and I don't think that I can come back!

I try to think of what is going on and how to end this dreadful fear, but nothing comes to mind because this fear is just too real

I know that as soon as the night comes again and when I lay to rest the dreams that haunt me come to life and take me to a place that I wish not to be.

How do I wake from these dreadful dreams?

The dreams that take control!

I can not rest peaceful because they wont let me go.

I know not where they come from but I do know that want me.

I am not allowed to dream happily for it wasn't meant to be.

I yearn so badly to get some rest that my body is weak.

Since I am weak I can not control these things that haunt me.

I'm at war with myself to overcome my fears and yet it is more difficult than I had imagined it would be.

I try to keep this from happening again but I don't know how.

Soon I will find a way and the war will go away!